(a)
I smiled, looked cold and everyone around you, it is a smile in the hysteria, the intersection of the two extremes.
I have forgotten how to cry.
A man sat in the corner,
nike air force ones, I leaned impassively cold walls, learn the only thing working in the heat of hot tea.
watching the crowd laughing, still smiling, I am sad that no one noticed.
(b)
keep the blood pouring from a wound in hand, I forget the pain, any fresh blood drops to fall on the floor. Suddenly, I found myself not bright red blood, it's the same color and loneliness.
I have forgotten the color of loneliness.
opened the door, I smell the breath of winter, and my heart just will not hibernate in the cold, ########## soul is tearing, pain to numbness, loss of feeling.
(c)
lonely and I the same country,
nike force one, and this may be fate. in the dark I lit a candle, dim the flame gently was beating, it is still a heartbeat. candles then make the darkness swallow me, no resistance , no struggle.
I have already got used to darkness.
walk alone, deserted street late at night, my world is still only my own, cold and helpless quietly spread the company of me and the pain.
(d)
boiled water kept boiling steaming, I stare at it, mind fly away little by little my body.
what I think?
What can I do?
constantly ask myself, did not answer.
I'm used to questioning their own.
there is no thought, there is breathing, clear breathing, I can hear my own heart beat. strongly about me, I in the end still alive.
(e)
turn on the computer, hear the mouse and keyboard in the quiet night issued clear voice. QQ no one. suddenly been asked to be authenticated, in his self-introduction of a column,
air force 1, I saw a quite reasonable thing: because of boredom so online, on the Net was more lonely!
not hesitate, I hold the mouse press the \ br> It turned out that I had used to boring.
(VI)
no meaning in my life, my life is not happy, because the frustration, as ruthless. no goal, in my own unique ways alive,
air force one low, living in their own world.
go on the road, do not bother pointing and cold, and I still calmly walked firmly, his face still wearing inexplicable smile. a shadow, why not forget that you also just my passing? think of you, I put away a smile, stopped, looked up at the sky, not blue, is the color of loneliness.
I can not force myself not to think of you.
(VII)
nest on the sofa, rubbing his hands constantly forced the temple, the habit of migraine attacks with me. On the table stood a glass of ice water and painkillers, I did not touch them,
air force one 25th, close your eyes, feeling pain gives me the pressure.
I have used to torture yourself.
suddenly felt cold hands warm, turned out to be the hot tears, I thought I had no tears.
(eight)
angels have wings, I did not, so I'm not an angel .
devil magic,
air force one shoes, I did not, so I'm not the devil.
I Yes, is the frustration, despair and loneliness of freedom.
heart of hope and despair, struggling fiercely, winning is helpless . I have learned to accept the helpless, helpless to compromise.
... ...
The disadvantage is too good angel, the devil is too evil shortcomings, my faults are too weak.
(IX)
gently close your eyes, straining, breathing is not greedy your air. is freedom? or miss? I can not answer yourself, you had not so much thin air.
I have learned to adapt to the cold thin air.
laughed and cried, fights, uttered, and now I need is just indifference.
(ten)
sunshine through the window, gently warming my body. opened his eyes, with my hand the block glare light, cast a quilt, I am going to continue to dream of being interrupted.
dream once awakened can not go on. fretfully sat up in bed, his hands supporting his head, my hair is messy , hanging down. dream woke up. I said to myself with a wry smile shaking his head with despair to accept the reality, to meet the new day meaningless.
I am accustomed to life in stone.
(XI)
back is true, are false, and no attachment, you are not you a hundred years ago, I was not me, really sad, tears are ########, did not cause and effect, a hundred years without you I do not.
between trance I can see you, reach out and touch only a blank. I know, a hundred years you will still be you, but I miss less.
<br \ forward, but you farther and farther away from me.
Pinmingdexiang you rush I know you're in my eyes disappear. stopped breathing breathing heavily, I began to laugh, laugh at my silly, laugh at my stupidity.
(thirteen)
room, books filled the whole table, I sat in front of piles of books, and sighed. silent for a moment, I suddenly stops up, grabbed my hand break those boring books, forced to fire in the wall and threw it , and then threw himself on the bed heavily.
a long time, I got up to book a one who picked up again on the desk and smiled helplessly, buried in piles of their own.
(fourth )
lying on the table, I buried my face deep arms tears flooded out so unexpectedly. I keep doing deep breathing, fluctuations in an attempt to soothe my heart, but I can not help myself.
( fifth)
I removed the false smile, put a tired face. still sentimentally attached to you, but I learned to hide.
... ...
my life is always calm, only when the wave is like your tears.