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Shen. (B) (2007/02/02)

about him.

She has such a small box.
aunt said to her childhood filled with all of his pieces.
those words are quite mystery memories film, they buried her bones, as she grew up, brewing fashion.
blurred by the imagination of the original picture, the more gradually clear.


his atrocities.



him period and time anew namely children hanging in the roof, severely whipped with a naval band.
only because of inferior errors committed by children.
hit, he was not allowed to eat.

the first primary school for fun and reside late after school.
he threatened the babies bend by the door, are not allowed to leave the half-step.
that is in the winter, he was kneeling on his whole night. not allow children to proceed the next day
go to school, but children with high fever for almost tugging the body of a coma,
thick with barbed strap,Lacoste Zepher MR2 Shoes, headlong into the child's leg in.
regardless of how the children cried, he kept coiling as possessed as pumping.
until a neighbor came to reproach Wensheng, he lived hand. Leaving the child to a neighbor hastily bandaged the wound.

a whole winter of that year, the child's lower leg swelling and inflammation, wounds fester.
walk lame lame.
he turned a blind eye, and even intensify their damage.


birthday eighteen children out of a car event. Almost died.
hospital room.
to see him once, the language of the most turbulent intimidation of the children in bed.
and tell the child that he is his burden.
child in his second daytime off in a huff, give up all sense of survival.
secretly squeeze the infusion bottle of medicine, try to inject air into his thigh context.
was nurse to discover, the children survived.

he certainly heard about the matter.
the day in the hospital, the child of a person slowly walk home.
then meet the child family, is still a meal whipped.


the child with his household since then no longer speak.
he was silent, began to grow with prodigious tenacity, leaving him with both hands to make a alive from the industry, to fared themselves.

children experience what, who knows.
citizen economy revitalization that is current years.
child's success came rapidly. Like a castle built on overnight.

when children dressed in one day return to that home, then, he is emaciated, and looked filthy.
fled the camel, living a grain of truth Ireland.


the child, is her biological father.



she has adored her father.
If required to have such an adjective would.
Yes, love.
and solution of physical geography among her father because his silence, implied something.


sallow she had seen signs of that circle, circled by her father in the small bone at the Tuixi.
she knew too much.
impression that her father's rage, the cause she ought not be asked also early to ask answers.
at that time, she no longer questions. The years. About him.
equitable because her father did not like her so.



she was 8 years old, he had lived fjust aboutme time back home.
he took her to sleep.
that summer night, his fingers into her quilt, disgraceful to probe into her legs.
her eyes closed, pretending to be asleep, feel his touch.
Sidongfeidong.
speak with dim dirty.
imagine whether her father saw the shade, would look like.
and she finally just fear and carefully to keep it a secret. Like some kind of dirty and dangerous treasure.
she be buried in it a small box.
growth in her game.


she thought her aunt noiselessly.
forced to accept that he was a fast deal marriages matron.
married the other half of huge spenders, betrayal, split, come down.
arrogant young man has been trivial floor into a gorgeous dark brown.
her father's half-sister.
her aunt.

holding childhood, she had teeth, for in, look resentment.
whisper whisper stories over and over again. Also, like himself.



she saw a photograph of his young.
wearing a military uniform. Features handsome.
without expression is in the smile, mouth suddenly there are lines of sadness.

she knew he had had four matrimony.
and her father's own mother, his second wife. Birth to her father in the moment, bled to death.
must be at that time, he followed the dead. With his wife to a strange obsession with all the sensations.

she think so.
seriously think.
Perhaps she does not dislike him.
the kind of venom, but like branded in every drop of blood, genetic, innate.

in the bone. As deadly as headlong into the heart.
may be in even earlier.
When she inadvertently day in the growing morning base,
who had venom trickle into every chapter of her body, with her father remaining under eighteen years of anger that forbear. Shen. (C) (2007/02/12)

defense she went outside, leaning opposition the end of the corridor on the terrace, point a smoke.
looked down from the ninth floor engaged.
a bit cold.
her open palm and gently moved his fingers slightly Ma.

days getting dark.
merged with a few red and gray smokes wipe uncoordinated.

able to get the third branch, when suddenly someone started to put out fireworks,
cry to a huge howl in the sky had turned black ek a blossoming shine colors.
She froze for a few seconds. Pinch put out the cigarette butts, back to the ward.

he had fallen asleep.

afternoon when he said, a savor of things to eat.
her to go buy a plum powder, slightly heated, inserted into the output tube in his jaws,
islet see him greedily licking his lips, sucking salty.
so he can only eat.

She stared at the sleeping he looked for a while, then got up and went and saluted the nurse responsibility apartment, and left.



She sat riverside, watching the water daze.
been a long time to go.
before she sat there like a half a day.

was nearly 10:00 pm.
think of tomorrow, but also get on early to the hospital to help him bathe replaced the previous sets of pajamas, put away her cigarette, is ready to wake to go home.

a pair came from behind whispered laughing.
girl's voice is very sweet.


is that familiar sweet smell.

her emotional back, watching the strange girl's back.
subconsciously held onto the left arm.



she has not asked YLJ sweet smell of fragrance that has a name.



05 in the summer.
is the final time she saw her.



kind of taste, is still clear as yesterday.





YLJ sitting on her mattress.
wearing that lavender camisole, water pen painting book leisurely doodle with.
and she sat the other side of the soft seat, casually readily turned over the writings, and occasionally look up at the YLJ one.

go? She hesitated a moment, try to ask in bed with the fortuitous intonation of people.
Well? Ah. Do not understand. YLJ also raised his brain, saw at her. Was then lowered his brain to draw.
he did not call? She asked.
hit. But these days it seems more busy look. That had to come pick me free.
grace. She looked down to peruse.
how you? I am here to confuse you? YLJ raised his eyebrows.
She smiled, did not speak.
YLJ Fangxia Bi,Lacoste Swerve Shoes, staring at her. Dead child.

silent for a while.
she suddenly whispered, others how to?
would like hymning.
your parents like him. She queried.
grace. This is essential to ah. YLJ slightly sarcastically deride the sound, changed the position lazily lying in bed, when you come back from that?
a long time. How long did you go I will transfer the.
ah, I do not know it.
You certainly do not know.
definitely want me. YLJ smiling face in the pildefect in ... hand curve at her.

she opened his mouth, say something.
something accidental to rise up the graph in the chest. Such as anger.


I feel occasionally can not accept many things.
YLJ suddenly whispered. Face to the other side, did not continue to see her.
but funny is every time when I did think,
certainly somebody will narrate me, who I think can not adopt, and in fact often is correct, I really need.
later, I am sad to not do the time, they will start their own concession.
I think, in the end I do not normally do, or they are not natural.
I may ... ...
or why only I am so sorry ... ...
then I would think that this problem may I ask you only one person, and just want to get an answer from you.

she did not speak. Head low down at the floor.

I'm afraid. YLJ muttered like himself. I really miss you.


merely not use ah, is not it? She said. Voice trembling slightly,
we do not get want.


good while, they all said no.

she looked up.



is the same as before, YLJ always refused to cry when given the slightest sound.

mouth slightly higher, with an ventilation as if by and by smile like, tick on the left face of a alley dimple.
large pieces of slender and tears slowly goes over the headstrong insolence. She gazed fiercely


YLJ.
Then,Lacoste Casual Shoes, indifferent, carried away to go.




last night.
they Suzhe feet sitting on the floor to speak.

send you a gift.
Well?
allows us to have it attach.
true?
grace. You want it?
want.
started a morsel hurt, you afraid of?
you give are no scared.


What is this? She looked YLJ
sack out from the bed of the needle, a catheter and a bag of white crystalline material things.

ice. YLJ gently said. I have been using it. I am happy.
I want us to have the same kind of feeling, calculate of us ... ...

her face staring YLJ goes calm. Heart suddenly severe anguish.
then nodded, and looked muscular.


needle to penetrate the blood containers when the chilly she could not help but took a deep breath, arched body.

That is what the strange feeling.

abruptly injected into the body.
a moment she could not hear any sound, but like all around filled with the maximum intense clamor.
blood in the body like the roar with life-like, in the distortion of her panic to hear their quiet voices in the boiling.
quickly bulging in the heart, is from now on break a camel excited.
every muscle seems up in the tremor.
abdominal cramping was so she could not breathe.
mind a blank.

left arm completely out of feeling gradually.
she began to spasm.


forgotten for centuries.
back have all been drenched in sweat.

She is like floating in another distortion of the world.
with only the invisible hand dragging her in all consciousness.
her like a person who is extremely weary, just slumberous, but was kept marble hand to wake up.
hand on her body, welling up in her every cell.
made her more sleepy, but more excited.

have different warmer hand gently stroking her hair.
struggling to hold her hand, and its fingers connecting.
a warm fluid drips on the face.
She looked up, whispered to the hand of the master said, let me embrace you.
YLJ mentioning anything to kneel on the floor, Louguo her head.

languid grab YLJ her clothing around the waist and sat up, face in her soft breast, listening to the versed sinking center tempo.
sense of pain with blurred and far.

her globe, all of her shadow ... ...
everything was large gloom brought almost by the gentle swallow.



time.
she suddenly eager to die as
Shen (D) - on (2007/02/24)

time
tiny sad that you want to take you to the world
no joy, no pain, no desire
want to hug you again, and your fingers intertwined, and our heating
no sound. There is only me and you.



she always imagined she was in a morn.

big blank stadium.

YLJ sitting on the cruel staircase of the top wafer, exposing a length leg gently shaking laughs and beckoned her over.
She stood underneath, looking up at her. A time to forget the words. Sour proboscis.

there is a sudden cold feet.
suddenly down, do not know when the stadium has become an ocean.
trance forget where they are in, push does not move the body.
YLJ still called her.
tone began anxiously.
Kuai Diana. Over ... ... what are you doing?

mouth she would like to answer, but unable to pronounce anyone sound.
staring YLJ.
water had virtually Yandao cervix.
her hard on tiptoe.

come ah. How do you? Oh ... ...

fast sound gradually became a huge murmur.
she watched in panic as the fast rise in the water around, a little bit up and drowned out their own.

sank.


wake.
mild shortness of respiration.

her open eyes staring blankly at the ceiling for a while.
no longer sleep.
sat up, went out a dagger from beneath the pillow.

ruddy has disappeared, dreadful wrapped around it on the rusty deal.
tip will no longer be keen.

her arm stretched out, looked him above those who across the ugly without forming scars.

some wounds have long healed, leaving some of the shades of roseate scars, suffused with pale without natural light.
and a few thin the blood not completely falling off the scab, a few weeks ago a new harm.

She clenched shank, slowly, the compel began to paint down on bring an end to ... the wrist.
carefully to avert the tendons and blood vessels.


light shining dark steel peak along the new skin.
what, two, three times ... ...
divide blunt the pain of getting there.

she slowly increase the intensity of each aisle, seem to engrave a picture-like converge and solemn.
along that line has been bulging the concave paddled area, next to the meat has began slightly Suixiao reveal the quality of fiber, oozing thin bloodshot.

cordial breathing down more gradually.
just hack the wound is still faintly twitching.


the end of her dagger back into the pillow, lying down sideways, curled himself into a warm pellet.
close your eyes.



the dagger.

she has been close at hand.
is their understanding of the second year of Christmas Eve, the first gift interchange.
the same blade, to find a blacksmith's name carved into two, wrap the red line, one person one. Shen (D) - in (2007/03/01)

memories is the source of all warmth.
prowling in the depths of the psyche.
she constantly heard them breathing.
to slow and gentle outlook, a little swallow all light.


navel school his father had been sent to a private boarding.
six years.

YLJ read in sixth grade when she came to alteration schools. Her two-year tall.
was her bedroom in the same series.
are very quiet look.

their first real understanding, in that year's Christmas party systematized by the school.

not merely remember the happy day.
suddenly homesick.
is the third year into the school, and my father did not see her again.

when the school people are gathered in piles around the bonfire on the playground to eat, to see representations of each agenda year.
she sat alone in the corner of the throng laugh, just silence down a daze.
to start playing the film when the fire is extinguished, the playground becomes a dense hunk.
her four teachers have looked at and resolved to go 1st.

she likes to go with 4, Academic Building CD music classroom window on a large platform to listen to a half day.

day to go there when it found the platform has been in the.
look back a girl.
She did not say anything, hiked alone the additional side of the platform, looking down the playground.
the girls appear it took a while ahead Huiguo Shen was alert to the side, hastily turned and looked at her.
she Ce Toukan past. Startled by surprised.
faint light music in the study-room via the platform appearance, playing in their face.


YLJ hair in the air is disorderly.
hanging a few lines of his face is not no tears in the dry.

see her, as if a little correction, but to face, with a slightly surprised, petulant look into an immediate they stared at her.
you see what ah, low-grade.

she stared YLJ. Do not speak.
atmosphere a bit embarrassed. They are a hard rigid
expression 大眼瞪小眼. Refused to yield.

moment.
she suddenly buzz to laugh out.
YLJ smiled, obliterated his face.

you doing here? YLJ side head to ask her.
do not know. You?
a person with esteem to the convey of Xia Zhuan.


that they sit side by side on the platform and began to chat.
forget what they said. In short no one then apologetic.
was not merry, seems even now away asset.

only remember that day very windy, they sit closely together shivering.
When the school alarm rang 12 o'clock, the gathering ended, they returned to the inn, his face frozen red.
is smile.


schools are all closed-end management.
students at the school has just two or three hundred people.
each level size is pathetic.
teaching teacher, teacher of life, a kind of instructors, multiplication up to more than the digit of students.
The students are mostly from single-parent families, or will the rich and mighty children of cadres.
always dull and boring.


those days.

they will be going to night classes each secretly slipped out from his class,
go lie with iron railings in front of the school opposite the house with food noodle mart to a small black dog comic come to play.
YLJ like the dog, always call it ink ink.
them every time the ink from the ink outside the narrow railing clutch in, take it to school with the conceal in a garage until the big bus is a few hours.
to study up before the end of the back bedroom and then we sneak back to the ink ink noodle shop employer is very friendly.


every weekend, the city's school children will go home with the family too.
school only twenty or thirty on the boarders. More space and quieter.
they two are in the field. That summer recess and even a few years alternatively even the New Year is the headmaster home.

a good number of weekends, YLJ and she slept on in a small single bed.
YLJ always touching her hair aside, legs coated approximately her legs, whisper.

they got into a fight. My grandmother today to a telephone call, grandmother cried.
said he hit her mother, her mom was not allowed to return to his grandmother.
you say, Why do adults like that ... ...
the old side of his shameless thing to do, one side then it is rational to school their children, is more wayward bad ... ...

do you know Lian Bridge ?
Well?
afterward go there play with us.
What is that?
a small town far away. Before I came here, there lived a year.
very beautiful. Well ... ... a small town,Lacoste Shua Lace Shoes, so small that only thirty-four street look, but are next to the beautiful mountains and lakes.
really? Good. Then we go. I've always liked, grinding
aunt took me to the side to play ... ...
have both sides of the high precipice ... ... Here is a few train trails, turn onto the bridge to go slowly, there is big lawn it.
really beauteous, full of soft green. There are many curious flower tree. Small lake, transparent to necrosis.
Lian bridge large people are good busy Oh, ah ... ... busy doing affair to make money, so the town next to the beautiful places that few people go.
wow ... ...
want, right? Want apt smile, I'll take you ah.
Haha so how do you like the old man.
really like you ... ...
thing.
there ... ... the lake of tears lake label.
ah, a good listen. Why?
I accustom to ask why the aunt, what is that old story. Later she told me the results
mountain name is Pig Hill ... I would not ask any more questions.
... ...
big mess of people to take the name ah. Other mountain they called Pumpkin Hill melon mountain. That charm is gone.
ha ha ... ... a nice smile of the town.
Blessings.
that we own to the mountain Quganmingzi it.
Well ... ... What?
called ink is good ink mountain.
... ... you is not seen cats and dogs from small to great even want to call a neighbor like ink ink.
was not. The name of the multi-nice ah.
good. It is called Mexican Mexican mountains.
Well ... ... that we must go well beyond ink ink mountain.
really want to go ah? I then smiled. Mouth carpet big points.
... ...


that they go over the wall together.
YLJ was stabbed on the walls of the glass tip of the shoulder.
she could not help but made a fire, and called her stupid.
YLJ no direction justified her anger.

to the days when the garden club was away she ran to buy Band-Aid.
came back YLJ a person sitting there playing games, to see her back turned her head in the quondam. Still moping.

scrape past her bully her, his face a good thing, I lick ...
YLJ sullenly or pretend to bypass her.
- uh prattle - really ah lick you, metamorphosis, ha ha go away ... ...


YLJ birthday.
her pick out a big Snoopy fabric toys.
not in the hostel while YLJ YLJ quietly on the bed, with a little card that says.

you are all my delight. No one replaced.
we are always together.

YLJ midday sleep when we look toys back to the dorm and a look of wonder cards.
she happy.
even two quarters as her classmate girl looked at her strange eyes. Have no time to think.


afternoon school recess.
her lying ashore the seat and see television.
back a few boys and girls sitting together does not know what to say.
sent waves of laughing.
boys accidentally loud up there.
ah - you are all my happiness, no one to replace -
I love you!

her stiff stiff.

must be them.
noon they move that infant ... they read the card ... ...

do not fault it.

She looked down silent.
to pretend not to listen.


afterward a few weeks.
YLJ suddenly one day asked her if she was that day's card with the other two girls bedroom peer.
her slightly surprised, how do you know?
YLJ furious, just know them. These days there are people in our class passed us two things. Nonsense. She suddenly explosion

well done. Why do they do.
YLJ must have been the class of people made amusement of it ... ...

lunch damage that day the two girls back to the bedroom, she quickly went silent.
suddenly pushing the one with one of girls.
the girl a opportunity to react and kick the door.
loud roar up,


hand is also very inexpensive. Long after the quiet and effortless to do things that move me.

she finished slowly, and turned away.
two girls did not look at that face.
YLJ sat on the bed staring at her.
long time to react, eat and giggle together.

day after she and YLJ out with the original bedroom, two living in another empty bedroom.
YLJ proud for several days.
Kanba ... ... or I work to dress Luo, finally agreed to the ... ...
so that teachers still must arrange a good relationship ... and life ... hehe.


and that entity,Lacoste Camden Shoes, she has to mention two tacit no 1 had.
only when she felt. Even if chaos were the students pass, it does not stuff.

long, YLJ still.


they still slumber together every night.
speak. Spooned.

you have dreams?
have ah.
What?
not tell you.
... ... I must come to know this ... ...
that your dream?
previously thought ... ... Well, so have the ability to make a lot of money to many assorted countries, buy a lot of beautiful clothes, to disburse a lot of handsome boyfriend.
anthomaniac ah you.
Haha.
... ...
hey, you said, we will not truly transform a homo######ual?
recess guaranteed, I have not the slightest amuse to you.
dead child, I have entirely no interest to you. You Freeze ah.
Shajiao recklessly?
... ...
refers to what? Yi Long Jing sister?
Hey.
you say this ah?

range YLJ speak,Womens Lacoste Shoes New, her time to think, an thrust, lips and carefully mallet YLJ lips.